Unfortunately, things are getting bleaker and bleaker concerning DJ's seperation anxiety! Normally he's ok as long as it's not bedtime that I'm gone. Well, yesterday we weren't even gone two hours and all my mom had to do was feed him dinner, but he refused to eat! I had to feed him when I got back at nearly 7:30.

I don't know what to do! My sister Rosie's wedding is in two weeks, and I'm going to be gone ALL DAY. 7am till midnight or so. Is he not going to eat all day long? I might be able to sneak away for an hour or so between pictures and the reception, at about 4pm.

I'm really feeling resentful about this. I can't even enjoy a dinner? I can't even enjoy my sister's wedding?! I feel so upset that this is happening to me. I'm not upset at DJ, I'm just upset at the fates or whatever. I feel like, what did I do to deserve this?

Right now the plan is that Dave is going to feed him dinner and his bedtime snack every day this week, except the days that he's at the car dealership to pick up his new car and get the tradein for his old one. That should help, hopefully. This Saturday is the Bachelorette and what I wouldn't give to be able to enjoy that night, you know? I feel like such a loser that I have to leave these type of events and go home. I worry people get annoyed with me. I know they're probably not, but I still feel shitty. Since the wedding is two weeks away, hopefully if luck is on our side, with two weeks of Dave feeding him, maybe that will help some. I don't know what else to do. It's not that Dave never feeds DJ anyway, he does do dinner a few times a week, but sometimes he doesn't get home in time.

I don't know. I don't know if he's more upset I'm not there to feed him, or if he's just plain mad I'm not there. My mom said he was pretty much ok until it was time to eat. Gosh....having a baby is so hard.